yes , im wondering if were mean't to be.

i like you , and you know it.
i just expected somthing back , atleast a yes or a no.
but i get nothing?
mabye it's to early?
or mabye you dont want to hurt me?
but if you ever come across this,
i want you to know i've been hurt so many times before.
if you just be honest i will appreiciate it.
if you care about me , you will tell me.
and if you like me back , i would be so happy.
and if you dont i wont look at you any diffrent.

cause honesty would win me over more then your smile.

your not sorry , no more.

True friends are REALLY hard to find , well mostly for me.

it's easy for some people, but i guess I'm different.



well , i do have allot of friends , but few ones i can trust.
i always thought i could trust one person with everything that comes to mind.

and that would be a best friend, ... i was wrong.
I'd prefer not to say her name but, we met when we where in grade 4.
i thought we were the best of friends, we would hang out like everyday after school.

we would talk on the phone about hot guys till like 4 in the morning , silly i know.

but i thought best friends would do stupid things together cause well , there best friends!
then middle school hit ,

and the most stupid things would happen.

we would start fighting about the most stupidest reasons.
and she would prefer popularity over me.
and that day came when i couldn't have her as a friend anymore.

she would say she hated me and didn't want to hang out with a loser like me.

well she made a bad choice , instead of having one BEST friend , she chose a bunch of girls who are labeled "POPULAR" , and they didn't even like her, i would here them in the change room calling her a "slut" , or a "whore".
i though to myself, i bet if she knew that they were doing that to her.
she would run back to me.
like she always does , after a fight.
she didn't she just hung out with people that weren't her friends.
while i was hanging out with people , that ACTUALLY wanted friendship with me.

now i cant help thinking , what's the point of a best friend?
this girl should know, that if she wants whats good for herself.

she'll look back and think why did i do that to Emily?

she probably wont but, one day i hope she realizes what she had done.

just sit back, and tell me i'm a liar for this.

I really don't know what to say..
k, well i like a new guy obviously.
when don't i like someone?
i have like a new guy every week.
ugh , why do boys have to be so stupid?

like that last guy , he tells me he likes me and what does he do? ,

lie , of course.
why wasn't i expecting it?

he didn't treat me like he liked me ,
he used me for his own humour.
so i just went with it , of course.
i was crushed for like a week cause of him.
my friends warned me , but i didn't listen.

i wasnt in love with him but i think he shouldn't of lied to me like that , it hurt me cause i liked him alot.

I'm sure I've learned my lesson, not to trust boys with my heart anymore.
unless I'm actually in love.
and hopfully the next guy will be a good one(: